Oh sweet july. 

I am in my new apartment. It’s 2am. The power is out. I lit candles and tried to finish cooking my dinner with the heat trapped in the oven. I missed the movie I was supposed to see at 9:30. I was late and it sold out. s sat there throughout the movie with an empty seat next to him the whole time. I went to w’s. He laid in bed with z with his head next to a fan and I charged my phone. z and I took turns guessing each other’s moms’ names. I met s after the movie very apologetic and we rode the train home together. I asked him to describe the movie to me which he did and he told me about his crush and I talked about moving and oh the drama. I got home around midnight and started to make dinner out of olive oil, shallots, garlic, a can of tomatoes, eggs, and greek yogurt. It’s now august. I am sweating and smell bad and I have for days. Our power is out because we didn’t pay the bill.